I think I need to take care of myself this evening and tomorrow. If I can forgive myself for this slip up then life will be much easier. I guess every time I pick myself up off the floor there is less of a way to fall and I fall less often. Progress, my friends.
Doesn't mean I'm not having a hard time sitting in my body right now. Yuck. I realise a couple of days of normal eating and my stomach won't be hard and bloated. Shame my distorted brain can't figure out how to believe this information.
So tomorrow - nutritious food and gentle exercise.
Be kind to L day!
I'm so sorry that you are struggling with an eating disorder on top of everything else. I understand how hard that is. Eating disorders are hell and feel like prisons. I am so proud of you for making the decision to eat and to be kind to yourself. It's good to eat and to take care of yourself, it really is the best thing you can do for yourself :)
ReplyDeleteI really hope you feel better :)
*hugs*
Nicole
I am a recovering bulemic as well. It has been many years since I've binged and/or purged, thank God. I don't have any easy answers for you. For me the reality is I just stopped living that way. When you're entrenched in it, it seems impossible to get away from, but life is so much better without all the craziness!
ReplyDeleteWay to go girl!
ReplyDeleteThank you all so much for the kind words.
ReplyDeleteIt is wonderful to feel real connections with people so far away. It shows the power of human compassion. I would like to think that I can contribute in supporting my fellow bloggers, and it's a great feeling.
amandakiska - you're right, it is so freeing not to have those behaviours. When I have periods where I don't binge I feel alive and focused on something other than myself - or my body, to be exact. I'm sorry you had to suffer with it too, it's a miserable, isolating illness. I'm so glad you have managed not to succumb to it over the years. Good on you!
Nicole - you're so right. Prison is a good word for it - feeling trapped and like there is no way out. But I am getting to a positive stage where it is fading into the background...yes some days are better than others, but I've been dealing with this for 11 years and I struggle so much less....long may it continue!
In the Pink - thanks! I like being cheered on, lol.
Hope you're all ok xxxx
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