Ah, nice birthday but hard times.
Well I had a good day but I drank and I didn't let on. So now I feel guilty guilty guilty and scared that I'm going down a baaaaaaaaad road. I know this ALWAYS leads to serious trouble, and serious consequences. I need to get my head screwed back on and sort this mess out.
I'm shattered from drinking and not eating properly. When I drink I can't eat as much because if I let myself then I'll consume SO many more calories than I need, and I really can't deal with weight gain on top of everything else.
So I have another gig tomorrow night. Let's hope I can make it through the day without drinking.
I HATE LYING.
I HATE MYSELF FOR LYING.